For the first time in my life, I have the desire to be in a relationship where I can happily grow old with one person… This seems a little far fetched for those who know me. I’m a person who loves my independence. I know that I can get things done on my own, and therefore only ask help when I'm in dire need. I don’t think that we are halves, perhaps some of us are, but I however am a whole. I make up my own circle - I complete myself.
I’ve never been the one to jump at the idea of marriage or commitment. I guess, as we grow older we tend to realize and want different things. Part of it could be because of influence, perhaps new goals or pressure from our elders. For me it was very simple; my eyes were pried open. And I blame him, or perhaps it was the challenges I was faced with.
I’m no expert on relationships; however I do hear the word “compromise” quite often. In order for a relationship (of any kind, however in this case it’s much more specific) to work, we must all meet in the middle. It sounds incredibly simple doesn’t it? But how many of us actually do this? We are all human beings, born with a silent rage to gain and take energy; the most frequent method is usually from another human being. However, this drains energy levels from that other person. In my experience, I have tried to remain optimistic and full energy in times when the other party is experiencing low energy levels, feeding them my high spirits. Having said that, I’ve also compromised my busy schedule and squeezed in “meet with Pizza lover” every now and then in my organizer to feed him my energy. It’s unfortunate, the way things work out sometimes… I’ve also heard the word “understanding” being used when describing that great significant other. A friend once said “we don’t want someone to understand us, we want someone to love us” – is that true? Can we truly understand someone if we’ve never been able to relate to them or their situation? What would make someone understand who we are? More importantly, how can we understand others? I think we just need to listen and empathize, we are all able. Now what do I do now that my eyes have been pried open? I’m not quite sure where to look.
One thing I do know is, I’ll just keep on living my life the way I’ve always done so without the influence of another… and maybe they’ll shut again… | 
